I dont know what you put into my glass

I knew it was to good to be true, it finally happened. Just had the breakdown of life. I haven't cried like that in years. I fuckin thought I was but i guess not. this shit is all hitting me at once, I'm fucking alone and i hate it. I don't know if i miss her or the company of a woman. I don't really give a shit all i know is i need something in my life to change. I'm tired of feeling this way, I'm not a crying pussy all the time. Excuse the language I'm just broken right now. I fuckin miss her to death, all i wanna do is call her or drive to her house. But I'm not. I know we're not right for eachother, but we were together for 2 fuckin years. And now nothing, absolutely nothing. Fuck me. I'm so fuckin broken and tired and angry adn hopeless and hurt. People all say talk to your friends and keep yourself busy and shit. My friends care but they dont care and i have to deal with this on my own. Life is shitty right now and I feel like running away. Emotional pain feels like its never gonna end, I cannot see the light at the end of the tunnel. off to get wasted, bye! SILY